Sometimes things don’t work out.
No, sometimes they don’t work out at all.
And, sometimes, it seems heartbreaking.
Things were not as I thought I wanted them to be.
As it turns out, I thought wrong…
Once upon a time on a mountain in the sky,
Arizona burned bright with flames a mile high.
And it waited.
It waited while a boy stood at the crossroads, asking for a sign.
Caught in a fluorescent bath of indecision, he looked at his watch, he looked back at his car, he looked at the suitcase by his feet.
It should be so easy, just get on the plane.
“I prefer to be in the plane”, he thought to himself, but his feet still didn’t move.
He thought of his dream, turbulence in crossing the Mississippi River.
A blaze of glory with a sudden stop.
Going down in flames to die a proverbial death.
Something’s gotta give.
He stood in the parking garage and considered his other dreams…
Once upon a time on a mountain in the sky,
with thorny arms and hot breath,
Arizona changed his mind.
“You don’t have to take your life at face value”, he would breath in the words from her mouth as she said it to him later, though he heard it then.
He tried to reach out and grasp the glow of her heat but it was on him already.
In him already.
Compelled his thoughts.
Already.
He didn’t know what he knew while he stood at the corner of uncertainty, not exactly, but a spider moved in it’s web and the wind stirred the surface of the water.
“What if I told you that if you get on this plane nothing will ever be the same?”
He heard the question though it too was yet to be asked.
“What if I told you that you can’t go home again?”
“What if I told you that you never left?”
Once upon a time on a mountain in the sky,
a silent creature in Arizona waited with unblinking eyes.
Warm sand against it’s belly, in the shadow of a tree.
Without worry.
Patiently.
Xavier locked his car and picked up his suitcase, this is what fate feels like.
It was time to go.
Home.
Trust The Devil You Know 
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